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I seem to use this journal yearly for long updates about my life more than my actual LiveJournal account, but I guess that's ok. Over the years I've watched followers come and go, though I have noticed that a few of you have stayed through it all, even though these day's I'm not really uploading all that much anymore. Hopefully, after some awesome new changes to my life, and career, that will change as well.
This past year, wow. What a ride. Made friends, lost some, and I even changed the entire coast of the country that I live on...I'm not even joking. The entire "West Coast Industrial/Goth DJ God" dream sort of went sour, simply because in such a dark underworld, there is going to a seething den of leeches bound to cross your path at some point. It's just par for the course. Those will raise you up to believe that you're special and gifted (though I was already aware of that compared to the stock I was spinning alongside), that you're someone that they treasure and such, and in the end, they will fold that false modesty into a shank and stick in firmly into your spine and twist that fucker. Will, looooong story shortened, that's what happened to me. Couple that with a situation of such insane voracity I forced myself to deal with just to get out of it cleanly, that I nearly lost my sanity over it I decided the time was right to just GTFO of that shithole Vegas for good. This is the rant part of the journal, so for the squeamish, look away now plz. Kthnx.
Fuck all of you. Seriously. I trusted you dumb cunts, I really did. I even put my faith in the notion that I was really going somewhere with all of this, but no, it was just a bunch of BS so that others could bareback their name of my skill. Well guess what, fuck ya. Seriously. Fuck ya'll. Resident me for a few weeks and then replace me? Pssh, I'm not a push over that gives up that easy. Nowadays, I'm resedenting at the LARGEST club in the entire state that I'm living in. This past week, I promoted it, promoted my ASS OFF and the place was packed with near 500 people, all coming there to see ME. I did that on my own.
So fuck your bullshit notions, fuck your bullshit twisted ideals and idiotic statements of false wisdom you fucking douche. As I said earlier, the DUMBEST thing you ever did you fuck, was teach me everything you knew and then rip me off. Sorry kiddo, but instead of giving up, I've taken your idea and then expounded on it. 10,000 fold. Just you wait and see.
Anyway, that was therapeutic, and with that out of my system, I can get back to updating you on things to do with my life now..
Changing coasts, a few lifestyle changes, and being with my fiancé now, not separated by thousands of miles has really improved my attitude. It's also improved my sleeping and eating habits, as well as my generally state of mind. I was starting to become suicidal again, starting to want to do what I could to ruin my life all over again like I had before, but...I chose not to. I chose to stick through it and bare it as long as I could and do what I could to get out of there. That was the right thing to do.
Some people have been bitching at me because they feel that I was just running away from problems, but those that have been saying that are the same that don't seem to have much comprehension for what I was going through. I had just experienced everyone I had trusted back there collectively stabbing me in the back and bailing on me over a fucking LIE, and then just took sides and pulled straws. You don't "run away" from something like that. You give it the proverbial finger and then just move on with your life and leave those kinds of punks back in high school where they refuse to grow out of.
The new place is very cozy, and I quite like it there's adequate space for my office, as well as Becky's. Hell, we're going to start our video/photo work there there's so much space. For a one bedroom, we got a good deal. It's also located near a nice batch of woods and forest with a great view, and in close proximity to a batch of good stores and amenities. That was fucking IDEAL. I'm so very happy with this situation. Also, her and I ARE still planning on going to either Germany or Japan to live abroad. Possibly permanently. We just with that bullshit Ukraine/Russia situation as well as the Fukishima thing hadn't happened. The outbreak of war, AND massive radiation kinda of throws a monkey wrench into things...no?
I've been brushing my skills back up in both languages, as well as a bit of my Russian because well...you never know what can happen lol. I may have to settle an international bullshit war for all I know via YouTube or something. Ah well, its still refreshing to be doing things anew again. My family and actually good friends back in Vegas are very happy for me and proud of the move. I miss them, very much, but I'm also just glad to have gotten out of that shithole. Its a town of BS and glam/fame seekers. You have to be scum to survive in a pond of nothing but, and no matter how I tried (in vain and probably shouldn't have anyway) I couldn't fit into that bullshit crowd at all. I didn't want to anyway. My EDM crew out here is much more fun to spin with, we threw that shit DOOOOWN last week. God damn that was the most fun I've like ever had at djing event/night, and I'm set up to be in regular rotation. Fucking hell, Axiom is going to go places, and I god damn sure of it.
Lol, if we end up in Vegas to see the "familiar faces" at one of our events I will kill myself in pride...and in ego fueled laughter
Sorry guys, but after all that...I've have FUCKING. EARNED. IT.
Anyway, that's all I have for now, so until later...or another year from now apparently...peace and love my friends. Peace and love.
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